i cannot tell you how many times in the last three weeks i have felt His great love for me. i am not the only person on the planet, but the way He has cared for me lately has made me feel like i am. the beautiful thing about it is that He cares for each of us with as much kindness, gentleness, and extravagant grace as we can imagine. and He keeps doing it. for me. for you. for all.
if all He did was love me, that would be enough. but He does so much more. when i am angry, He lets me beat my fists against His chest. when i am sad, He lets me bury my head in His chest and cry for as long as i need to. and all the while, He is smiling at me and loving me to pieces. and when i say yes to whatever it is He's asking of me, His smile gets bigger and His love bursts out in greater measure. and that's when the extra special surprises happen. supernatural peace. a word of hope. supernatural joy. a promise. supernatural provision. and sometimes it's the thing i most wanted at a time i least expected it. today was one of those days.
i am learning to be grateful for the things He does instead of worrying or wishing for the things He has not. saying "thank you" for the way things are. hoping, sometimes asking them to change, but moving forward in thanksgiving for what i can see right in front of me. then BAM! out of nowhere He gives me what i have been asking for. i was holding onto hope for it, but i was not expecting it. in fact, my initial reaction was shock...which quickly dissolved into sobs of a deeply grateful heart. He has not forgotten me. He sees me. He loves me. and i am His favorite.
