just as i thought...

you know those times when you know what's about to happen? you expect it. you try to prepare yourself so you'll have the most positive outlook afterward. then it happens...and you still end up being sad/disappointed. that sucks. i didn't get the job at Horizon. i wasn't surprised...i sensed the "no" coming...and i still found myself sad. if i'm honest, i'll say it scares me. the idea of not having a full-time job and only one more paycheck from my last one. in some ways, i'm more prepared for unemployment than some people...i have a tiny bit in savings...i started a part-time job a couple of weeks ago...and i am making arrangements to be able to sub for awhile. my mom recently reminded me that this is the point where the "rubber meets the road"...where i really choose to trust and believe...or where i give up. i'm not going to give up. i will run the race He's marked out for me...even if running isn't always the most comfortable.